Wednesday I was up early for a nice easy 4.5 mile run. I wanted to take things easy on my knee. However, at mile 1 I felt an all too familiar twinge. I knew better than to push myself any farther. I turned around and headed to J.R.’s work, walking.
It is so difficult to force myself to walk when I should be running. The mile and a half to J.R.’s work seemed to drag on forever. But I was glad I forced myself to walk as the pain in my knee didn’t get any worse.
I am horribly disappointed about my knee. I just want to be able to run. As much as I hate doctors, I finally broke down and made an appointment. I am hoping there is some kind of solution. Realistically, I know she will probably tell me rest is what I need.
I am perfectly fine with giving me knee some rest. However, there are two problems with that. One is I need to get in cardio somehow so I don’t lose any training for my half. I would bike, but it is difficult to get on the bike during the week. I am going to have to see if I can get J.R. to set up a trainer for me.
The second problem is my half. It is two and half weeks away. I have been receiving emails all week about final preparations for the race. At this point these depress me. As it stands, I don’t know if I will be able to do this race. This devastates me.
I have worked so hard to get to this point and now I may not be able to do it. And even if I can do it, unless there is a miraculous healing, I won’t be able to do the best I could have. This is horribly disappointing. But I have to take care of my body. I don’t want to further injure myself. So I will do what I have to do keep myself healthy.
As always just gotta keep moving, albeit sans running right now. :S
If you are a runner, how do you deal with injuries? If not, how do you deal with disappointments and setbacks?